Can't Keep A Zac Down

My Poor Baby

Never trust mom to give you a cup to drink out of when she's trying to give you medicine. Always ask for the unopened can and then make her open it in your hand!!!!!!!!

Ok enough laying around we have doors and windows to disassemble.

Zac went to school today with Zoe and Zac made a few friends!!!!!

Just 12 hours ago I said I'd never try to stand again and ha mom tricked me again!!!!!!


I can't believe a week has gone since Mark and I did the hardest thing of our lives! It amazes me how GOD gives you the wisdom and strength to do what has to be done and the speed of time to just push thru it and not realize the storm is passing until you are almost thru it. Zac has been amazing in his recovery. Tues at 8:10 am we checked him into the hospital for surgery. We spoke to the surgeon at 9:45 about going thru Zac's knee instead of the ankle. ( I was torn about what they were going to do and had left it for the Dr and the other opinions he was getting. None of them had the same answer and I had a strong strong urge to just go thru the knee and be done.) It was the hardest thing I had ever done, but didn't have a good feeling at all about the symes amputation. The Dr agreed with me and changed the surgery order. I kissed Zac and gave him a hug, and off he followed his dad on an atv to the OR following a nurse blowing bubbles. I watched him turn the corner and told the nurse I'd meet Mark outside. I checked in at reception and told them I'd be right back and fled to the parking lot to sob. I so hoped we were doing the right thing. I thought about how Zac will feel will he hate us, will he be in a lot of pain, What if the other option was the best choice? But the odds of another surgery in a year were great and having gone thru 1 with Zac I just couldn't put him thru anymore if I could help it. He has been thru way to much already. I pulled myself together and went back inside the hospital to find Mark who was just walking out of the OR. We sat for what seemed like an eternity I mean an eternity.... couldn't do my homework couldn't read the books I had brought just drank cup after cup of coffee and stared at Mark. At 1:20 the Dr came out to the waiting room to find us ( usually a liason takes you to the Dr). He walks us to a private room to talk to us and I'm thinking OH NO this can't be good at all. He sits us down and then sits himself and sighs a huge sigh of relief. He says he's sorry it took so long but Zac is fine and did well. He said we made the right decision and that no one in the room had ever seen anything like what they found in Zacs leg. He said he felt it had to have been a twins leg and that the tendons bones cartlidge, muscles everything was in the wrong places. His fibula had to be pulled out from his femur where it had blown thru the knee. He had muscles from the calf around his knee so they kept it and wrapped it around the bottom of his knee to give him a weight bearing stub. He said there was no way Zac should have ever been able to walk on that leg and that he didn't think it would have lasted in the current state much longer and he would have had to go back in to take more of his leg soon if we'd kept his surgery the same. To say I was relieved is the understatement of the year. I Thank GOD for giving me that knowledge that we did the right thing. I don't have to doubt for the rest of my life about did I do the right thing. After surgery we were taken to a different section of the hospital were we had 4 AMAZING nurses care for Zac. They were right there they asked me what I wanted him to do or have, they understood Zac had been thru so much and respected and seen the miracle that Zac is. If you know of our last experience you know what a nightmare it was and how afraid of a repeat I was. Last time was so bad I had friends tell me they would drive 5 hours to get to me and help back me up for Zac. Zac was realeased 23 hours after we checked him in. The 1st 2 days were hard because he won't take meds thanks to the 1st hospital stay. So we muddled thru. By fri Zac was in his chair and going out for lunch and visiting dad at work. On sat he was out shopping ( poor kid had 1 short sleeved shirt and 1 pr of shorts) Of coarse he was mad because we didn't buy him a suit, and they were sold out of ties, but I did find him a new blazer on the clearance rack!!!! We also got him his 1st pr of shoes that actually fit his foot. We've had to fit around his double foot and had to buy 2 sizes too big and he was so excited about shoes that fit!!!! Sunday he played in the sun in the backyard and today he was a guest at Zoes school were he made some friends and had a great time. Thanks boys for being so helpful and kind to Zac. Tommorrow we head back to Indy for a bandage change, then a week later it is back to start measuring for that new leg. He wants a kung fu leg that can kick out from 10 feet away like a superhero or a leg that can leap like tigger. Hey a moms gotta do what a moms gotta do! He does ask me where his leg went and why did we take it? He says he wants it back. I tell him it was broken and the Drs couldn't fix it. We looked at every possibility but it was just too broken and I wish it wasn't that way, but soon you'll get a new leg when you heal and that new leg will be awsome and he'll be tall like Zoe and get a big boy bike and be able to do everything he wants and it won't hurt anymore. He looks at me and goes back to playing with cars. So I hope we are good. He doesn't like me right now and only wants his dad. Some days I can't even be in the room or he'll scream. It breaks my heart but I am the one here and he needs the yucky things done. I am honored to care for him but my heart breaks he doesn't see how much I love him. I know 1 day he will. This will all be a distant memory when he is older and defying the odds. I will then have the pride of knowing the hard work paid off. I keep saying I will sit down and tell the miraculous story of Zachariah Alexander Qi. I hope soon things will settle into a nice routine and I'll be able to sit down and tell it and give it the justice GOD and Zac deserve. Looking back so far at the whole picture it is nothing short of miraculous!!!! Zac you are a true blessing! An amazing human being with a tremendous will to do more than get by, but to suceed over and beyond what the world expects of you. I am blown away by your strength and stamina even when I know you don't have it left to go 1 more step you find that which GOD gave you and take it anyway. It is an honor and a privledge to say I am your mother, and to do that which I never thought I could do thru GODS grace to help you become the great man you've been called to be. Your destiny is calling you my son... It is a BIG DESTINY and it is a strong force around you and in you. I am so proud of you!!!!!!!!

Thank you all for the prayers and messages etc.... We wouldn't have gotten this far without you. To God be the glory and I pray when you see our family and our struggles joys and triumphs you see GOD. I Love you all!!!!!