Good Afternoon Everyone,Ok While my littles are eating lunch and watching Little Mermaid I thought I would try to start Anserwing questions. We'll start with Why did we decided to adopt waiting children.
After years of infertility and losses we decided to put all our fears in a box and give International adoption a try. We went to a local agency meeting and decided this was how we would become parents. We had several countries to choose from. I had always wanted a son and so we put Russia on the list , then guatemala and China. Mark was concerned because China referred mostly girls and so he knew I would be giving up yet another dream of becomming a mom to a little boy. So that night we prayed God we have these choices and don't know what way to go. Where are our children. After that simple prayer we turned the TV onto a program talking about China adoptions. Ok so prayer answering quickly. A year later we had a referral of our daughter Zoe. On our 1 yr anniversary of becomming a family of 3 we decided to start again. We talked and talked over the prior year about the waiting children and how maybe we could do that. We talked about what each of us thought we could care for and my list and my husbands were very very different. I had said no limb differences and Mark said ach that is no big deal. So ok we added it to the list with my silent prayer that God would see it my way!!!!! Well fast forward and no lists came out no list came out we sent our paperwork on ahead to China in the nsn track hoping that we'd be matched whether it be regular program or sn. We just wanted to get in line. In sept of 06 after waiting about 5 months we get a call we have 2 little boys here do you want to look and see if 1 is your child, So we rush right over and look at the pics. I couldn't decide what to do. I couldn't choose Mark couldn't choose. So we handed the pics to our then 2 yr old and said who is your brother. The 1st child was 2 and had cl/cp the 2nd had you guessed it a limb difference. She looked at the pics and said this is my brother and handed us the pic of Zebidiah. He was born with a left foot. So started our journey.
I had a lot of praying to do and researching to do and soul searching. My fears were all pretty shallow now when I think about it. Will I forever stare at his difference? What will I do when people say things mean or insensitve to him? Will he be my dream child who plays sports and races bicycles? Will I treat him different from Zoe because of his disability? Am I strong enough to handle comments teasing etc... with a heart of Christ? God how do I do this thing I told you I wasn't strong enough to do. Give me a child that has a heart condition easily fixed or a birthmark on the back no one would ever see. Not a child who will need prothetics and special shoes etc... I am not strong enough I have a temper and say things that I later regret. Please are you sure I can do this? The answer I got was Yes you can do this. You are strong enough. No you won't even notice he has no foot. Yes he will do everything you dreamed your son could do and it will be amazing and it will be a testament to me and it will prove that anyone can overcome anything with Gods grace a little faith and the strength and guidance only I can give you. The trip to China to adopt Zeb was a great eye opener to what it means to be missing a limb or even part of a limb in a superstitious country. We seen beautiful wonderful talented men laying on the ground playing music like nothing I had ever heard I swear it sounded like angels were playing to the Heavenly Father it was that splendid. When we got closer to the music and seen who was playing the man was in rags and dirty and had no left leg. He would crawl down a flight of steps at sunrise every morning and play until late at night with a box in front of him hoping he would get enough money to buy a meal and care for his family. Then we seen another man missing his leg sitting on a step holding a baby crying out and begging for food for his family. In other countries these people who are different are shunned their condition is bad luck it means they have a bad family history or their ancestors have committed a sin. It is so so sad. We realised that could have been our sons future had I not trusted God and took a leap of faith that it will be alright. The son we are waiting for now has waited for years and been overlooked on several lists. I wonder if I hadn't had that experience in China and had not taken the leap with Zeb if I would have even seen this beautiful, precious child? God knew though! My mountain was limb difference and I thought it was pretty huge. Now it is gone! Zeb is normal in everyway. Once a year we go to the specialist and have his leg checked for changes. I did have to shop and shop and shop for a Dr that we felt comfortable with. That was a frustrating challenge but finally we found someone we trust and value his opinion. Zeb has had several different prosthetic devices. He is growing very fast so we go through feet like shoes but it's all good! He plays soccer and runs climbs did I say runs? He rides his trycicyle and runs!!!! He is perfect valueable wonderful loving beautiful. He is my dream. God is good. Zeb shows me everyday how to be an overcommer and how to just work around it. I know Noahs limb issues will bring new challenges and decisions that will be tough, but I also know it is nothing compared to the joy he will bring, the love he will share, the future and Hope he will have. He is a priceless work of art. The world may see 2 broken boys but God see unlimited potential needed a new place of nurturing. A Family. Don't pass up the chance of a lifetime. Don't let fear of other people or of the unknown rob you of such a wonderful amazing most gratifying experience of loving a child who needs a little somthing extra. In the end they give you so much more. Sorry if I have rambled on here or gotten off point. I love my boys so much and so many little boys in China wait and wait. They have 2 strikes against them 1st they are not perfect and second they are boys. God says they are his children and are worthy of all good things.




5 comments:
Lisa,
What a beautiful post. It is so true. I'm glad that Dale and I have opened our hearts to a SN child and one never knows, she may turn out to be a he!
Hugs, Denise
What a heart-felt post!!!
What an encouraging post. We are hoping to adopt a little boy with special needs from Ukraine. I found your blog on RLC. I will be blogging for them soon.
I have such a heart for children with limb differences, we desperately tried to bring home a girl from China with limb differences, worked on it for a year and it fell through. Long story, but she is in my heart and I know where she is going so I can always keep up with her. I am so excited for you.
kim
HI, I found your blog, searching through adoption blogs, and I want you to know how beautiful that is. We are praying that we get to adopt our now foster baby twins, and one is special needs, and I know exactly what you mean by God changing your heart and mind to see his plan. We were signed up to get a baby girl, but got a call that said, "We have a girl for you, she just happens to have a twin brother, will you take them both?" And now, I can't imagine our lives without them.
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