Happy Anniversary to My Son

A year ago today my husband daughter and I with our guide hopped a cab to the civil affairs offices in Nanjing China to meet for the first time a very special little guy. When we arrived he was with the SWI director and her assisatant eating a cookie. One look at us and he cried and cried. My heart at that moment was so full of joy fear and saddness that this tiny precious little boy was about to have his world so turned upside down by this crazy family. We spent what felt like an hour trying to comfort him and didn't try to take him away from his caregiver. Finally he went to daddy. Oh did that make his life to be the first to hold our new son.
As I reflect on this last year as a family of 4 and all the trials and hard days and great joy filled days. The Dr appointments prothetists, orthotists, therapists etc... that has become a part of our everyday vocabulary and I sit here in tears. We made it and my fears of my son never wanting me or loving me or trusting me are all a distant memory. It has been the last several weeks that he runs to me when he falls needing a kiss on his booboo. He cries for me in the middle of the night when he needs help. Oh how I have longed for the day when I could see he was really mine. And I can now say he is my little boy. He is the light of my life. I wondered how a parent could say that about all their children when they have more than 1 but I so get it now. I am so blessed for having my family. I am so in love with my husband and kids. I so can't wait for our new son to come home. I am so in awe of the glorious gifts bestowed on me by my maker. My little guy is truly a treasure sent to me from God himself. Zeb has changed so much in this year and he is so amazing. The way he does everything without a foot. He is so brave at all the Drs and getting casts and poked and prodded. He has come so far with his therapies and may not need them much longer. He worships his big sister well to tell the truth he is torturing her right now but he does it with Love in his eyes!!!! I am so thankful for this little family given to me. I never imagined I would have such wonderful children when I prayed begged pleaded with God for all those years for children to fill my home and heart. It was a dream I had put away for awhile and had given up on and I am so thankful God woke me up and for what we walked through to come to this path to adoption. My world would not be as sweet without my children. It would not be as bright without my children. It would not be a challenge. I would not feel this overwelming gratitude everytime I see them play or sleep. I have such joy that I had never had before. I didn't truly have a clue about God until I seen him through the wonder of my beautiful gifts of life that have been given me. Zebidiah thank you for saying yes to Gods call for you and becomming my son! Thank you for given me another taste of the wonderful gifts God has for us. I treasure you and adore you. I am greatful and honored to be your mother and with Gods help I hope and pray that I can be the mother you need me to be,
Happy 1 yr home little guy. I Love you so much!!!!!!!